Antesa Jensen

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Alchemizing anger.

Photo by Lacie Slezak on Unsplash

I have had the honor, in the past few weeks, of receiving a few women's anger.

I'm guessing this isn't something you read every day, but let me tell you why this is so important to me.

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At the root of our anger is every other emotional feeling that feels too vulnerable to express.

And, in society, being angry is frowned upon. Particularly for women.

And so we suppress it.

When we put our anger on lockdown, we make it next to impossible to be felt by someone else.

Which effectively disconnects us from one another.

It's rare to have the capacity to receive that sort of charge from someone and then transmute it into love (rather than throwing it back at the person we got it from, or throwing it at someone else).

I can do this because, over time, I have learned to love my own anger, and see it for its inherent value in the makeup of who I am as a person.

However, I used to tell people (with a lot of pride, no less) that I wasn't an angry person.

In some ways, that was true - I'm *not* an *angry person*. But in saying that, I also discounted a very real thing that made it difficult for me to not only ever experience anger, but also access all of the other rich human emotions that lay just beneath it.

Hurt.

Heartbreak.

Grief.

Sadness.

Overwhelm.

Humiliation.

And conversely, the emotion on the other side of the angry coin - passion - which was also on lock down as a direct result of it.

Suffice it to say, I now think of anger as a golden key that can unlock a whole universe of emotions that gave me access to worlds I never even knew existed.

And it also gave me access to my own desire.

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So when I say I had the honor to receive a woman's anger, this is what I mean. In my reception of her, she gets the key. And in her unlocking her universes, I get to feel her. Which is one of the most rewarding experiences of being a human that I can think of.

It's called connection. And it heals basically all the things.

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Do you have a hard time knowing what you want? Do you struggle to tap into your desire; your driving force for why you're here on planet earth?

Does this show up for you at work (complacency/apathy), in your relationships (lack of passion), in your sex (low or non-existent sex-drive)?

My guess is your suppressed anger has something to do with it.